I Can't Lose You Again

[Verse 1] Your name came up this evening While I was putting dishes away You asked if I’d been sleeping I asked about your day We slipped into the ordinary Like we’d only missed a call Then I heard you take a breath And remembered where we are [Pre-Chorus] I wanted you to keep on talking I was scared of what comes next I’ve spent weeks getting through the evenings Now I’m waiting for a text [Chorus] I can’t lose you again I’m still learning the first goodbye Still reaching for your side of the bed Before I open my eyes If we’re only getting closer To leave the way we left I want you more than I can say But I can’t lose you again [Verse 2] You said we could get coffee Somewhere neither of us knows I pictured you across the table Then the moment I’d go home Would I leave there with your hand in mine Or your kindness and my coat? Would we say we’d see each other And then neither of us know? [Pre-Chorus] I don’t need you to promise What no one can be sure of But I need to say I’m frightened Before we call this catching up [Chorus] I can’t lose you again I’m still learning the first goodbye Still reaching for your side of the bed Before I open my eyes If we’re only getting closer To leave the way we left I want you more than I can say But I can’t lose you again [Bridge] Maybe you’ve been doing the same Taking longer routes back home Finding something in the cupboard That you never bought alone Maybe you rehearsed this message Maybe you were frightened too I don’t know what this is yet I just know I still want you [Breakdown] I want to see you I’m scared to see you I’ve felt both all night I start an answer Then another Neither one feels right [Final Chorus] I can’t lose you again I’m still learning the first goodbye But I’ve missed the way you listen And I won’t pretend otherwise If we’re going to get closer Let’s say what we couldn’t then I want you more than I can say And I’m scared to lose you again I can’t lose you again There’s no easy way to start I don’t know what we can make of this With everything still so hard But I won’t send “I’m doing fine” And leave the truth unsaid I still love you I’m scared to lose you again [Outro] I type, “I’d like to see you. Could we take it slow?” I read it once. And let you know.